How can I not be such an ornery old lady?

 Today I am going to NOT be cranky and ornery!

I choose to be cheerful and joyous!!!!

ha ha ha ha ha ha ha and hah!!!!!!!!!!

 How many times have I promised that to myself and the world around me who are just as cheerful and joyous????????????

 Seems like just getting my head off the pillow another major discovery in hw very ornery my mind can be and is already devising new ways to be yet even more clever at disguising this under a "cheerful and joyous spirit"..........

Sooooooo what to do?

I mean how can they say beauty comes from within when I feel like if it does I have keep on digging cause mine must be in some sinkhole somewhere.

 I heard somewhere we have to "cultivate" a sweet spirit!!!

What does that mean??I am not so sure.

But perhaps I can better understand that with some help. 

What do you think this means?

I would appreciate any female answers cause this is like a lady topic.